& I knew you could never love me. I had so much sorrow inside, you could never reach, but can I still keep a place in your heart?
I don’t think anyone’s words have ever affected me so much before. I’ve never really contemplated suicide before. I was always one to believe in hope and to get help when I needed it. But what exactly did that do to “help” me? It’s just a bunch of pills that make me feel even more depressed or nothing at all. I feel nothing but depression and loneliness and stress and anxiety. I don’t know what to do about anything. My heart is just constantly aching. I don’t want to have to deal with anything anymore. I don’t want to live with these feelings of depression. I just want it to all go away.
I know we’re not particularly close, but what you said to me made me take a step back for a moment to think. I can’t promise anyone anything, but please don’t let my actions affect yours. I know we’re both struggling and fighting against something that a lot of people don’t understand. I don’t know if I’m looking to be saved, but I do know that I’d hate to see any of my friends go through any kind of pain and depression, and I don’t know how you’d feel about this, but maybe we could help eachother. Maybe we could turn this around. Because as much as I want to give up, I can’t bear the thought of you giving up. Especially if I have anything to do with it.